What does "Walking the Tightrope" mean?

I probably should have started my blog by telling you why I named it "Walking the Tightrope." So here it is. The intimate look inside my head. So buckle up, there may be turbulence!

Right now, I'm struggling to keep my balance, my sanity, while being pulled in so many different directions. I have 3 wild sweet loving boys. I have a loving supportive husband. I have a loving family, loyal friends, great pets, and many interests. Not too bad, if I do say so myself.

But like all true to life stories, we've had a lot of drama and trauma over the last few years.
Some things that have happened still haunt me. Some are further out of site, but like to sneak into my consciousness when I'm least expecting them and many I wear on my sleeve. I could probably devote many hours to that, but at the moment, I'm too exhausted. So let's take things a little at a time. After all, this is just a summary.

Part of walking the tightrope for me is balancing my emotional side and my logical side. My family has been known to comment that I actually ooze emotions. So often, my emotional side breaks me down, tires me out, and leads to actual physical effects. This needs to stop! Hopefully this blog will help me to "see" things more clearly, to dissect my feelings about things, and look at them with an eye turned towards logic.

I also need to find balance in my future plans. I left a career that was just beginning when I had Collin. I chose to stay home with my children, because it was what was right for myself, my children, and my family. It was a willing sacrifice, but a sacrifice all the same. But 10 years later, my youngest is going to start half day kindergarten. Then the year after that all three of my boys will be in school all day! I'm scared to death!

Why, you ask? Do remember being little and everyone asked you what you wanted to be when you grew up? I used to think I wanted to be a princes warrior animal doctor explorer scientist, photographer astronaut dancer. That's all well and good when you're 5, but I'm going to be 35 this year. And I want to be a naturalist herbalist natural body care product maker lactation consultant writer warrior princess!! Yes, I'm conflicted. I'm hoping that I can use this blog to help me work through that as well.

So "Walking the Tightrope" will hopefully help me keep my balance while amusing other people while I'm at it! Hope you enjoy!